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when people are talking,

treat them with respect.

because you have another party talking to you,

you just don't get to ignore the first party who HAVE been talking to you.

what are you to ignore people like that ?

everyone has feelings.

settle talking with the first party then turn to the second one.

as simple as that.

dayummm.

you might think that i am very weird,

but i am a human too.

i have my feelings.

i have been bearing with your tantrums for such long ages,

& when i shut up and do my work,

I SHUT UP & DO MY WORK.

is something is wrong when do my work ?

already ignored for so many times still wanna continue blabbering ?

and so when i shut up and do my work Quietly,

people assume that i'm so emo,

pathetic until someone have to ask me : " are you okay ?"

WTF ?

i can say that only people who don't know me enough will ask me such question.

since i don't exist in your eyes,

& get ignored all the time,

i might as well shut all the hell up & do my work.

is it wrong ?

i hear whispers.

but those who don't know me will judge.

& clearly, you don't know me.

i've been controlling myself since last year,

& i'm doing a pretty good job,

because i have God & those friends who have been through all of the shits with me.

just want to tell you,

when you said that something,

have you thought that i've had this feeling since last year ?

so don't compare your pain to mine.

just because you don't know,

doesn't mean i'm not in agony.

i know i'm nothing to you,

but i'm glad because this means that you don't have to mean anything to me .

next time,

talk to people only when you are serious,

& when you are confident you won't ignore that someone.

and also mention the name of that someone.

p/s: you still dont get it.

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Sunday, February 19, 2012

Free. @ 8:26 PM

it's quite an old one,

but the energy & fire i have in me every single time i listen to this :)

would you believe me if I said,

that we are the ones who can make the change;

in the world today.

would you believe me if I said,

that all of the dreams in your heart;

can come true , today.

would you believe me if I said,

that life could be all that you want it to be, today.

and if i had wings i would fly,

'cause all that i need,

You are;

and if the world caved in around me,

to You i'd still hold on

'cause You're all that i believe...

and the One that created me...

JESUS;

because of You,

i'm free .

would you blieve me if i said,

that God can make miracles happen today.

would you believe me if i said,

that you don't need to wait for the answers before;

you step out in faith.

would you believe me if i said,

that nothing is ever impossible,

for God.

just live your life

with God inside

you won't regret one moment of it

and give all that you can for God;

for God .

& ahBern ,

给你的 :D

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Monday, February 13, 2012

realjonghyun90 . @ 6:46 PM

hahah title dedicated to this lovely bad boy :p

yes youuuu <3

you proud ?

xp

thanks for creating a twitter account,

i felt so much closer to you already haha

wasn't sure if it's him last night,

because i don't wanna hope and later see my hope crash :(

well it turned out that he's really jjong.

all Blingers are so happy !

haha i'm happy for sure :D

but for some other reasons i'm not happy.

hmmm

thank God for the strength,

i think my depressed period is over ?

:D

it's just that i have this presentation thingy this coming wed,

and you know how much i hate talking in front of people i don't know.

@#$%6jrt90y%^&64

:((((

i'm so gonna freak out.

i really have stage fright.

not to mention i'll be standing in front of 140 + students & idk how many teachers & vips,

plus talking through a mic.

nervous shit.

T.T

i'm not even prepared,

which is shittier.

oh Lord :(

but the bright side is,

i'll be feeling super relief after this bloody thing is over.

plus one free period on thursday awesome right hehehehe

:D

i really hate to study in class.

really no mood.

besides sleeping / rushing for unfinished homeworks,

nothing is beneficial -___________________-

i don't get a thing .

all i want is to sleep,

or to do homeworks to make me Feel energetic.

this pathetic i know sigh.

i'm crapping too much now.

because i have unfinished PA essays & graphs ;

plus 4 accounts question.

luckily they're short questions.

tuition in 2 hours' time,

only 1/2 of petrol left,

haven't bring wallie out,

super hungry now

& wth am i doing here.

okay i bid you all good bye.

and thanks for reading this crap.

:D

JLU <3

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Saturday, January 14, 2012

A new dawn :) @ 8:39 PM

thank you Amanda for your awesome encouraging words,

& Hui Ching for praying for me always .

i'm contented.

and really, i'm done trying.

i don't care anymore :)

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Friday, January 13, 2012

63 hours. @ 3:12 PM

63 hours,

till i go back to school.

man, schooling really sucks.

i'm trying to live happily,

regardless my surroundings and annoying characters i see every single day.

i've been shutting my mouth,

not talking bout anyone else since school reopens.

but it just aches inside.

cause i've to bear with what i don't like.

yeah i accept that as a fact of life,

not everything can go according to my liking.

so , i've just to keep being patient and shout the crap out of my lungs at home.

okay.

that's about it :)

oh and i got a band 4 for MUET.

i'm happy, satisfied.

i was ungrateful at the beginning,

but now i'm all good.

God gave me what i want.

so no reason for me to complain and mumble about band 4.

what makes me happy is i just need another 10 marks to band 5 .

and i'm very very happy with that !

thank You Lord.

it has been raining lately.

almost non stop.

had bak kut teh for lunch with the loves,

and i just feel so warm inside.

but a bit not warm with you,

cause you're cold towards me already.

nah but idc.

i have those people that will be with me no matter what,

and it really makes me happy :)

grateful and blessed,

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Sunday, December 25, 2011

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the wonderful feeling you have when you felt appreciated.

Merry Christmas everyone !

:)

Jesus loves every single one of you .

spread the love !

thank you ah Bern, ah Sher .

<3

jeszlynn.

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Sunday, December 18, 2011

Holidays #05 @ 2:59 AM

this post will mainly focus on the decos in One Utama shopping mall :D

i just love the decos they have this year.

the themes and lightings and everything.

perfect and beautiful :D

so on the 10th,

minn arrived here from Genting.

didnt really do much this very day,

just that we had korean cuisine for dinner.

awesomeee foooddd :D

too bad i can't take spicy food >.<

thank you ah chik for the treat hehe

mum came to KL this day too !

for her concert tonight.

after waiting for 28 years,

now she's able to see her fav singer perform live in front of her eyes.

so so happy for her :D

11th,

went to Ikea for brunch,

*chicken wings again :D*

then went to One Utama cause minn wants to shop.

lol

we passed by a dog park,

and i promised myself i'll bring Wallie here one very fine day :D

so i walke around with aunt beebee and cheryl,

uncle jimmy went home to do chores.

then meet up with mum, aunt ancy and cousin bro han.

after that meet up with uncle alvin and wife connie, cousin sis chloe and both grandparents.

very very happy day,

being able to see all of my relatives hehehe

and the decos here is so so beautiful we can't stop snapping pics ;D

awesome underwater and seashells theme :D

very colourful.

i love everything to the max :D

the stage <3 :

later that night,

after dinner with everyone,

uncle alvin & aunt connie brought us to The Geographer's Adventure.

well it's a very happening place,

the atmosphere is awesome and i loved it.

:D

we drank but aunt connie can't since she's pregnant.

*waiting for baby Damien :D*

so instead,

she got herself a Chatime drink.

we chatted non stop.

haha :D

i'm glad that i'm able to communicate with them in a way.

we talked almost about everything,

and we are all very open to any topic at all ;D

got home about one plus,

and what happened after that,

i'm sure you all dont wanna know.

hahah

so this is all ;D

i'm seriously in mad love with the decorations in One Utama.

thank the decoration team, and other dept involved for the hard work :D

:D

jeszlynn.

very luck and blessed to have such an amazing family,

more lucky and blessed that we're able to communicate with each other.

really very fortunate,

blessed in every way !

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Friday, December 16, 2011

inner joy. @ 5:56 PM

everyone deserves to be happy.

to keep myself from thinking about

all the characters' i don't really approve of,

is to keep reminding myself everyone is different

in their very very own way.

to keep myself from thinking about

all the negative things,

or things that is tempting me so very much

is to keep every blessings counting;

on & on .

knowing that there's so many people that love and care for me,

families and friends that supports me,

people who dislike me & that i'm thankful for,

i just can't feel more blessed,

contented.

i'm happy.

deep down inside,

i'm happy with everything ,

in every way.

:)

all the praise and glory to God

♥

jeszlynn.

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Friday, December 9, 2011

KLIA . @ 2:03 AM

this is not a post.

it's crap.

advisable to not read.

thank you :)

of my eighteen years of existence,

i've never ever been to this international airport in my country.

it took quite some time to reach this airport.

and all the way,

i felt super drowsy and giddy.

probably it's because the road is wide,

i didn't know what to concentrate on,

plus i feel so dry because i haven't been drinking water.

omma felt asleep so she didn't feel anything.

ah lucky fella.

so when i walked down from the car,

i only felt like puking.

that bad T.T

my head was really going in circles.

i cant stand right.

but as i walked,

i felt a lot better lol

the airport is amazing.

it's so big.

though i know there are many more beautiful airports outside,

still i feel happy and grateful for such place to exist in Malaysia.

i roamed around like a traveller,

feeling so fascinated lol

actually there's nothing to fascinate about.

feel so jakun >.<

the fav place i have for the airport,

and the must-see-place of it,

is the ground where the airplanes will be,

waiting to depart or just landed down.

the feeling i couldn't express for when seeing these planes.

i felt so happy.

it's like i have achieved something in my life wtf

seeing planes make me happy lol

BUT

seeing planes in the sky do not make me excited as

seeing planes right in front of my eyes,

on the ground where i'm able to see from near,

but not so near .

when i was a kid,

mum used to sometimes fly to KL for work.

dad will bring me to the airport either to send her off,

or to welcome her home.

and i loved the airport very much.

the kuantan airport.

i love sitting in the car,

being excited along the journey,

and cheer with joy when i can see an airplane on the ground from outside the fence.

the airplane wasn't big,

since i'm seeing it from far.

it like,

it's a very magical thing when you see the airplane right in front of you.

when i was so small then,

i would think that it's something worth someone to die for,

just to look at the airplane in super close distance .

don't know why,

seeing an airplane when i was a kid is likeme seeing 5 TVXQ! members now.

i am a fan for airplanes hahah or

am i a fan of the feeling present when i see airplanes nearby ?

no one knows the feeling i have for this thing.

no one ever does.

i don't wanna express it either.

because if i did,

what comes is a whole lot of question,

and i hate explaining,

especially explaining feelings you have for something while knowing the person who you are explaining to will never get it.

then they'll take my feeling as a nonsense thing.

it's just a small secret of mine,

that i would want to share in my blog.

i'm afraid i will loose this feeling.

i just want to keep holding on to this magical moment of mine,

but i'm just afraid i'll forget it.

well yeah that's why i'm talking bout it now.

keep it a secret too will ya ?

thank you :)

so when i walk to that window and saw about 4 airplanes butt,

with that MAS logo on in,

*what i usually see when i was small*

i felt happy and contented for being able to see these butts and planes.

but on the other side i feel extremely sad.

because i've been living for 18 years now,

and i've never ever board a plane,

or even be 1km from it.

it's always very far.

it's just so very far.

something in front of you,

but no matter how,

you wouldn't able to touch it,

to grab it.

gahh i feel so sad right now -.-

i'm actually super lucky and fortunate to have my life now,

so i am not going to feel sad about not boarding a plane before.

no i'm not.

probably the time has not come for me.

and i shall patiently wait until Daddy says it's my turn ^^

so that's my story about my love for airplanes and airports.

well what i was doing at KLIA that day,

was to send my youngest sister off to Japan for her 2 weeks trip.

thanks to AFS,

she got the chance to finally step into her fav country at such a young age.

and be the 1st among us sisters to board a plane.

she actually reached there safely,

texted my mum telling her that she won't text anymore because it's very expensive lol

i kinda miss her right now.

and the 2nd one is in genting.

all my parents' daughters are at different places now hahah

well randomly i just feel the need to express the feeling i have,

the happy and contented feeling whenever i see a plane on the ground.

it's a big thing to me,

and it will always be.

:)

this moment will come when i'm able to see an airplane

take off from a super close view, i believe.

and this moment too,

will finally come when i am able to witness the

real size of an airplane;

and probably boarding it.

:)

ah shynn,

have all the fun you want !

<3

jeszlynn.

credits : rightful tumblr owners :)

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Tuesday, December 6, 2011

holidays #03 @ 8:46 PM

another week has passed ;D

and i'm in KL now wheeee

omma came with me but she went back this morning

due to her tuition classes *sobs*

we really had a great great time together hehh

so 30th,

i really forgotten what i did except i blogged lol

hmm remembered that i had lunch with omma and theng.

then i think i went for a jog in the evening alone.

i love jogging alone.

makes me feel so so peaceful.

But, jogging with friends is still the best ;D

because we will be chatting instead of jogging hahah

1st Dec.

first day of the month,

and i brought jessminn for a movie hahah

since her acc exam is on next week hahah

we watched Tin Tin,

and it's the 2nd time i watched it xD

amazing lahh..

just loveee the humour and the art of it xD

had dinner with parents at the beach :D

2nd,

totally had no idea what i've done haha

but i believed i've passed my day fruitfully

hehe

3rd,

dragged from bed by mum lol

and went to have lunch at PappaRich ;D

it's newly opened !

love that place hhaha

went to a wake in the noon,

then went home and pack.

headed to KL after dinner .

mum didn't follow this time because she have to look after jessminn lol

4th.

it's a Sunday.

a super amazing one.

my day never stop since morning till night.

spent my day with 5 of the awesome girls heheh

will elaborate more in another post .

^^

5th;

equally awesome.

went to ikea, ipc and the curve in the morning,

and around 3,

we went to KLIA.

yeap jessshynn flew off to Japan.

ahh hope she'll be alright.

well of course she'll be alright !

:D

had dinner with go-yi-po and family,

went home had a few sip,

and i blasted my head.

so painn.

and so sleepy hahaha.

omma's face was all red too xD

today,

woke up bout 8,

bid dad and omma goodbye,

then i teman-ed aunt to have her car fixed lol

waited till 12 plus,

then i got back and slept till 4 plus

hhahaha

after i woke up i read my fav novel online,

*so sanfu, and can't find ending.

waiting for my books to arrive >.<*

had ayamas and ah chim's home made salad for dinner,

and i'm stuck here ever since hhaha

i've too many pending posts

lol

hope i can finish them asap ;D

i blog,

because i just want every single small piece of my life to be recorded.

and i'm sorry because it's all words and it's all so boring.

hahaha

thanks for putting up with me xD

GBU ! :D

jeszlynn.

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Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Holidays #02 @ 2:29 PM

it has been a week since my last post ;D

gonna do a few updates since there's so many events lately hehe

so where did i stopped.

hmm. ahh.

so last Thursay, the 24th,

i practically cant recall me doing anything zzz

but i know i did something.

oh yes. went for yc with the loves ;D

and had a wonderful time

*recalled this after checking my texts >.<*

25th,

had lunch with mum.

brought Shynn for her piano exam,

went for Breaking Dawn with Erica and Harn Jun,

omgeee the movie quite okay,

the wedding was so fairy tale like and magical,

*Harn Jun Cried ! *

and the bomb is Edward.

i practically say this every 10 mins,

" he's so beautiful isn't he. omgee he's so handsome "

er yeah.

i'm in love with Edward like that >.<

and their daughter, super pretty :D

had dinner with grandparents,

then went to church for a briefing about VBS which is happening the next day.

very tired lol

26th ,

Happy Birhtday Harn Jun ! :D

turning 18 this very day hehe

VBS day 1;

super tiring,

but very very fun !

i love all my kids.

16 of them :D

i find myself unbelievable to actually recognize all 16 of them haha

cause too many of them dy xD

went for dinner with father at Balok,

*we went that far for dinner lol*

and sister is getting hyped about studying in KL already lol

got home and start baking cupcakes,

which turns out to be a failure.

aihhh T.T

27th,

wah a very big day.

i woke up late,

thus was so so rushing making cream for the failed cupcakes lol.

went to surprise Jing Wen in the morning as it is her birthday ;D

i was so tired wanting to go home to sleep,

but a friend needed me,

so i sacrificed my sleep and church >.<

well we had a nice talk.

hope she's better ;)

VBS Day 2.

animals are here today ;D

super hyped.

kids were so happy ;D

about what happened later that night,

i'll write a post bout it hehe

28th,

VBS Day 3.

final day :(

sad cause i'll miss the kids.

plus Jasmine and Alisson is going back to KL.

had bak kut teh at home for dinner,

mum came back from her trip,

and i felt sick and tire lol

29th.

sick for the whole day zzz

parents and shynn left for KL.

*yer i wanna gooo*

took some meds and felt better at night.

watched MAMA.

so proud of B2ST :')

they're performance is awesome !!

and to some fans,

just be contented with those awards your fav band got.

i don't get the point all of you arguing why they get this but my fav band didn't get.

everyone worked hard for it,

so just sthu.

so this will be it for this week.

i hope to be up here soon >.<

GBU !

jeszlynn.

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Friday, November 18, 2011

我的 李大仁 :) @ 3:33 PM

决不认输看完了，

现在终于都舍得看

我可能不会爱你。

我可能不会爱你;

我不可能会爱你 .

相差的是一个字,

意思却有大不同.

连续剧在被播放以前我已经在跟着这一部连续剧的详情了

因为有陈柏霖嘛，

还有我最喜爱的湘琴 - 林依晨。

暂时在台湾播到第九集，

还有四集就大结局了

真的很不舍得

：（

所以现在 我都放慢速度来看了

还一直重复重要的部分

哈哈

我看我是疯了。

除了我喜欢的那女主角

我看这一部连续剧

是因为我很喜欢它的剧情，

更是因为这部连续剧 让我想起了我与一个朋友之间的友情

但那一份友情 已经不在了

真的很遗憾

我曾经有的 李大仁 已经消失了

要重新找多一个李大仁

我很懒了

我很珍惜我们的友情

不过情况真的不同了吧。

我很自私吧 ？

你又不属于我，

只是每次看到你都不理我

我都已经放弃了

你 有太多人要去理了

哪有时间给我 ？

我不需要成为你很重要的人

只是想成为 你有难时，

我是你第一个会找的人

因为对我来说，

有难时 你确实是我第一个会找的人。

但是我都不是你会要找的人

更何况是第一个 ？

我觉得啊

自己太自恋了

我把你当成我的 李大仁

你又不一定会把我当成你的 程又青

想了好久

我也不想再努力了

就这样各活自己的日子吧

朋友 依然是 ：）

这部连续剧的片尾曲，

由林依晨主唱的 - 翅膀 .

你終於 勇敢 牽起我的手

你說你愛了我 好久好久

我點了頭 緊握你的手

然後我們一起了

你說會 帶我 遊整個地球

我們要在一起 直到最後

有你保護我 心都可放了

手已牽了 天更遼闊

因為有你陪

我的世界不再黑

我的天空

有你從此不再亂飛

你就是我的翅膀 陪我到前方

讓我學會了雨和雷後 一定看見彩虹

你就是我的翅膀 帶著我飛翔

累了之後有你為我取暖

你讓我更勇敢 更堅強

我只希望有你一直陪在我身旁

你就是我的翅膀 陪我到前方

讓我學會了雨和雷後 一定看見彩虹

你就是我的翅膀 帶著我飛翔

累了之後有你為我取暖

你讓我更勇敢 更堅強

jeszlynn.

谢谢你给我的这一份友情

:)

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