hard to believe,
but yes it'd Friday tomorrow.
best of all,
it would be the first day of June already.

crazy much ?
because i realized i haven't been achieving anything for the past months.
like what the hell have i done ?
and almost half a year have passed.
the only few things i remembered were how happy i was on my b'day ,
the surprises & all;
& also how happy i was for my maiden oversea trip.
that's all.
& i'm suppose to sit for the last big bomb this year end.
crap much.
crap so much.

this holiday.
seriously,
done nothing much,
just tuitions & all,
& also some bonding session which i cherished a lot.
it feels good to be appreciated by people.
:)

went for some jogging & hiking too.
that tiredness,
where you can't feel your legs, your heart, your muscle,
as if you were dead.
i love that feeling.
i love it so much.
because the irony is,
after giving so much effort,
giving in so much energy like all your strength have been drained from your body,
leaving you with no soul & no will,
still, you will be still struggling to catch a breath.
you just don't die.
you won't die no matter how you hope you can just sleep away from this world.
even with those pains & strains,
you just can't die.

and i like that feeling.
that feeling of forcing your soulless self to live a life.
a life that is great & blessed enough,
but you still can't feel the passion to live it.
i'm empty.
& i won't die.
that's all i know.

june, be better.
please.



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